We all have a backstory. It's how you use your backstory that makes us unique. Some will use it for sympathy their entire lives to manipulate others for their own gain. Some will use it to complain their whole lives which in turn keeps them from growing at all. Others use it to break generational curses, grow from it, and help others learn how to grow from their struggles. My hope here is the latter.
My childhood consisted of things no child should ever experience. Whether it was my trauma, my brothers, my fathers, or my best friends, it created a mark on me that lasts a lifetime. My adult life began following the footsteps of my childhood. Through the first marriage, then the second marriage. I somehow was lucky enough to raise three absolutely amazing human beings. Now, all three are adults and I couldn't be prouder of them.
After the first divorce, I was still too young to even understand what just happened. I had no clue where I was going to go from there. I realize now that I was just my mother at that point. Not something I'm proud of at all. That's another story for another time.
After the second divorce, I carried every emotion a person could have. Relieved, scared, angry, determined, exhausted, you name it. Then came happiness. I was finally free to be me, and so I started my journey of a second life. A second chance to be the person I was meant to be. During the end of the marriage, I had slowly started transitioning out of my chrysalis into the butterfly I didn't know I could be.
A whole new set of emotions flooded my thoughts. I struggled with anxiety during the second marriage due to the many characteristics of the narcissist. I had to relearn how to function. How to go to the store without a panic attack. How to drive without a panic attack. How to take care of finances and rebuild my credit that was destroyed. How to sleep peacefully without worry.
I began to grow from all of my experiences and find ways to see the positive in everything that came my way. Even to this day I do my best to stop and think of all perspectives in a situation. I don't think about how I feel at that moment, or at least I try not to. I have plenty of time to process and think about it later. Unless it's something that must be decided at that moment. Even then, I try to give careful thought in the outcome.
Growth means moving forward. If you are not moving forward, life becomes stagnate. You become dissatisfied with things and situations around you. Your family life, work life, social life, you will constantly find something to complain about. It makes you unhappy. I am no longer unhappy. I cherish every moment I can, and I encourage everyone to do the same.
Stop and smell the roses. Feel the sunlight on your skin. Breathe in the fresh crisp morning. Walk with positive intention. Savor every bite. Use life around you to propel you forward and share that positivity with others. That is what I want to do here. I want to help electrify the energy around others to encourage them that life can be so peaceful and meaningful.
I hope you have a fabulous #morningcoffee my friends.
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